We have narrowed down the form of lung disease I have to one so rare that I am not telling people not in my family what it is exactly. There are less than 200 people in the USA with it, and I'm a rare case there. That means that it would take about 15 minutes for one of you with access to the same research databases that I have access to to find the papers that are being written on my case, and that includes shit like social history that isn't anything spectacular, but still I feel kind of weird for strangers to have it. I'm boring, but I feel weird with that level of data out there to people who might be freaks.
I am now on serious immunosuppressants, on a step-up dose. I'm not at the "no functioning bone marrow" level, but we may end up there. I'm on drugs that say "use of these drugs may kill you, but it's less risky than not using them."
I'm also back on steroids, but a different set of them. If I go insane again, I may or may not tell you.
I'm literally at a crossroads, with these drugs I could go into remission (good) or I could get an opportunistic infection and die (bad, but maybe interesting.) OR, if life really wants to fuck with me, nothing could happen.
I've got about 100 words of the Night I Went Crazy essay. Still don't know if I will ever finish it.
I am now on serious immunosuppressants, on a step-up dose. I'm not at the "no functioning bone marrow" level, but we may end up there. I'm on drugs that say "use of these drugs may kill you, but it's less risky than not using them."
I'm also back on steroids, but a different set of them. If I go insane again, I may or may not tell you.
I'm literally at a crossroads, with these drugs I could go into remission (good) or I could get an opportunistic infection and die (bad, but maybe interesting.) OR, if life really wants to fuck with me, nothing could happen.
I've got about 100 words of the Night I Went Crazy essay. Still don't know if I will ever finish it.
